Through the Window

Looking in from the window

Is this what life has become? 

The glue that held me together

Has become undone

Every night under the moonlight

Always watching from the shadows.

Keeper of your every comfort,

When will I find my own?

I don't want to live on your dime

But I feel like I've got more time

Is the choice really yours or mine? 

I don't think I'm ready to die.

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I don't want nothing to count on me 

I don't want to let it all down 

It's hard enough to hold the line 

When you're leaning on a rain cloud

Didn't need to lay you down to rest 

You were already on the ground 

So I laid down beside you 

Until the sun came 'round

I don't know what else to do

It seemed like it already happened

But there was no light, or warmth, or hope.

The day only brought darkness and pain.

Since then I've been stacking rocks

and cursing the wind when they fall.

Praying to the birds that there's some meaning in this misery.

Some long awaited reward at the end of the pit.

Digging deeper, still.

Have I reached you yet? 

There's a song in my heart

But it stopped when yours did

I can't lose if I don't play 

So what's the point?

I don't want your help

because you wouldn't get it

I don't want the pain

I just want to forget it. 

I don't mean that,

I'm sorry I said it.

but it hasn't been the same

and I'll always regret it.