Through the Window

Looking in from the window

What has life become? 

The glue holding me together

Has come undone

Every night under the moonlight

Always watching from the shadows.

Keeper of your every comfort,

Will I ever find my own? 

I don't want to live on your dime

But I feel like I've got more time

Is the choice really yours or mine? 

I don't think I'm ready to die.

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I don't want nothing to count on me 

I don't want to let it all down 

It's hard enough to hold the line 

When you're leaning on a rain cloud

Didn't need to lay you down to rest 

You were already on the ground 

So I laid down beside you 

Until the sun came 'round

I didn't know what else to do

It seemed like it already happened

There was no light, or warmth, or hope.

The sun begat dark, cold, pain. 

Ever since I've been piling stones

and cursing winds of they ever fall. 

Praying to the birds that there's some meaning in this misery.

Some long awaited reward at the end of the pit.

Digging deeper, still.

Have I reached you yet? 

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There's a song in my heart

But it stopped when yours did

I can't lose if I don't play 

So what's the point?

I don't want your help

You just wouldn't get it

I don't want the pain

I just want to forget it. 

I don't mean that,

I'm sorry I said it.

but it hasn't been the same

and I'll always regret it.

Lonely Harts Rd.

Driving to town

I passed that place

The brand new fence

Hit me in the face

Knuckles turned white

Yet I was a stone 

What happened that night

I don't get to know

There's so much regret

I can't seem to let go

Would any of it have changed

If I answered the phone? 

I live with this

You don't get to

Maybe, I guess,

I'll see you soon?

I close my eyes

When I reach every bend

Almost there but

the nightmare never ends. 

It makes my heart race

I doubt I'll ever sit still

I hope you found peace

I doubt I ever will. 

There's some darkness 

That won't subside

No headlights ever will

Illuminate my mind.

I always get caught rambling

But I never get to stay

How's it been so long now

But it feels just like today?

There's so much of you left

So much I don't dare forget

You were the petal and the thorn,

Balance in it's truest form. 

My brother, my greatest friend, 

I'll miss you until I meet my end. 

And where ever I end up in death, 

I just hope there's peace in my last breath.